On the one hand I love that they are getting more independent. I see the joy when they master something new and I get so excited for them. I love that I don't have to do quite so much for them. I love seeing them make good decisions.
On the other hand I hate that they don't need me quite as much as they used to. I hate that they can do things for themselves and don't have to ask for help. I hate seeing them make bad decisions. (The latter is not usually the case. I have very good kids.)
Practically from the day my kids are born I sing to them at bedtime. Every night. That is the one thing that is never missed. They get to pick the song and it is usually a silly song that makes us laugh.
The other night when I asked Cruz what song he wanted he said he didn't want one. This has NEVER happened. Not once. A little shocked by his answer I asked if he was sure. He said he was. I asked why he didn't want a song and he just shrugged his shoulders. I was a little confused for a moment and then understanding dawned. He was too old. I asked if he was too old for a bedtime song. He gave a proud little smile and nodded his head. Two things happened at once; I felt such joy seeing him feel a little more grown-up and a little more indepenent, and my heart broke just a little. How many other things that we do all the time, that I take for granted, will he soon be too old to do?
My kids are growing up and I
6 comments:
oh sad day! good thing you have Koen to still love and sing to!
If it makes you feel any better, Cruz slept with his Blue PowerRanger last night! :)
Okay I actually cried a little tear when I read this, I totally know how you feel. They grow up so fast.
It is crazy how fast they do grow up. I wish I could capture these moments forever because I am sure going to miss them...
That was a very sweet post! Make me think!
It is always so hard but good to see your kids grow up and get older and bigger!
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